i'm a little teapot, short and - hello. i am a great kid with a naive mind. feel free to share your thoughts with me. 'would you care for some bread with your Earl Grey ?' i like tall and handsome korean men. currently married to Howl of 'moving castle' fame. adios amigos. :D

bet'cha have heard this a million times. it's always, 'why me?' and 'why him?' let's just forgo it this year and learn that life is unfair and we just have to accept it the way it is.

why am i ranting? oh wells.

time does not allow me to take things easily and i haven't been. this is my second time i'm sick this year, with the 'not sick' period so close to each other. it's not because of my immune system; that has nth to do with why i'm getting sick. it's cause i've been staying up til 12 everynite trying to get things done. and some how i'm failing.

perhaps i can say i'm only human. but then i will argue that if others can do it, why can't i? i want to make it. i want to do well in my studies and go to a gd jc. but this is not what i want in life.

i want smth like this:

me [at 21 yrs]: hello ms k, long time no see huh.

ms k [at 21 yrs too and veerrryyy snobbish] : ya - how have u been doing after u left jc?

me: gd. i've been doing many things rlly.

ms k: that's nice to hear. do you have a job?

me: sort of. doesn't pay that much [waves hand to gesture 'BIG' or 'ALOT'] but i enjoy it alot.

ms k: so what is it that you do?

me: graphic designer/ singer / fashion designer/ WHATEVER ELSE THAT DOESN'T EARN ALOT.

ms k [sneers slightly]: that's not very gd is it?

me: it's acceptable. so what about you?

ms k [smiles a foot-long smile]: oh, i'm an accountant. it's nth rlly, but i enjoy it alot. doesn't pay that much either - just around ten thousand a mth. oh, but it's nth rlly.

me [understands her intention n decides to rebutt] : whoa, that's a lot. you must have no life. =P

ms k: who says? [ANGRY] at least i've got a big house, big car, big garage, big kitchen, nice clothes and a 42-inch-high-definition-plasma-tv!

me: uh - dun tel me u cook?

ms k: of course not. i've got a housekeeper. now, that you can't beat.

me: i've got more than that. [ms k is thoroughly shocked; mouth is open widely] i've got time.

ms k: time?

me: yes. while you've been slogging ur guts out to have all those stuff n u call urself lucky, i've been doing things i deem worth it and things that satisfy me. travelling to all continents, sailing the five seas, climbing mountains, setting up my own charity organization, participating in marathons, plus all kind of extra activities. i've even been to ANTARTICA!

ms k: [seriously dumbfounded]

although this might just be wishful thinking on my part, i can always dream rite? it doesn't mean that i'm going to do all that though, but i just want to show ppl out there not to chase things blindly; things that you call 'goals'. don't be materialistic and always remember that your happiness comes first. it's just ironic - like poor people may actually be happier than rich people.

important thing to note: noe what you want and what that makes u happy. others are all redundant. and even how we may lament that life is unfair, we only know best - that our future is in our own hands, we decide what happens to it, not anybody up there in heaven.

HAPPY CNY. =)